Untitled poetry regarding S10k

Written anonymously by a friend On the 24th august an announcement was madeAlarm bells rang as a friend was disdained On mainstream media on a pedastoolResearch was announced treating us like we are fools Processing began…. Numb, shutdown, uncertaintyThen came the realisation, this was aimed at me A direct insult, a direct threat,to me, myContinue reading “Untitled poetry regarding S10k”

Dystopia: A story of “Autism Research”

Since autism first entered the zeitgeist, and probably before, research into it has focused largely on what causes it. The reason for this is clear to pretty much the entire autistic community. Rather than embrace the existence of a neurominority, and validating our right to exist, science largely wants to eradicate us. Now with theContinue reading “Dystopia: A story of “Autism Research””

Recovery as an Autistic addict: Forging your own path

As an Autistic person, I prefer things to be black and white, yes or no, good or bad. This made life all-the-more complicated when I was embarking on my journey into addiction recovery. Recovery from addiction is a world of grey areas. This monochromatic world however, is dominated by people who insist that it ISContinue reading “Recovery as an Autistic addict: Forging your own path”

Autistic people and suicide: A troubling tale.

It has been known for some time that Autistic people experience suicidal thoughts, ideation, and attempts at a much higher rate than the general population, but one recent piece of commentary paints a stark image of Autistic suffering. South et al (2021) discuss the field of Autistic suicide prevalence. One of the most uncomfortable truthsContinue reading “Autistic people and suicide: A troubling tale.”

Unmet support needs and multiple systemic failures: A story of addiction and autism

As I have said before, I truly believe that addiction is the result of unmet support needs. This can be an incredibly complex field, but today I am going to take take brief dive into the experiences that led to my addiction. My first major trauma was age 7. My best friend, Carl, died ofContinue reading “Unmet support needs and multiple systemic failures: A story of addiction and autism”

Addiction, mental health, and my fear of relapse

I have spoken extensively about my struggles with addiction and psychosis. I have talked about what it was like to be in that headspace. I have talked about what it was like to enter recovery. What I haven’t spoken much about is my headspace 5 years on. Addiction and psychosis were terrifying experiences, but truthfullyContinue reading “Addiction, mental health, and my fear of relapse”

The duality of Autistic experience

We live in a world of false binary systems. It seems that everywhere you go, something is either one thing or another. The same can be said of the Autistic experience. Many people are currently engaged in a long standing argument. Is autism a disability, facilitated by systemic trauma, or is autism a purely positiveContinue reading “The duality of Autistic experience”

Autism, addiction, and my need for control

I have learned a great deal about myself through self-reflection over the last 5 years of sobriety, but one lesson was considerably difficult to learn. I like to think of myself as a friendly and generally happy and fun person to be around, but the truth is that I need control. I need control overContinue reading “Autism, addiction, and my need for control”

Autistically medicated: the journey to find what works

My name is David, and I have to take a ton of medication to stay healthy. It’s taken years to find the balance, and recently, one of the main medications has had to be changed. Currently I am taking aripiprazole, paliperidone, mirtazapine, trazodone, promethazine and propranolol for my mental health (although the paliperidone will soonContinue reading “Autistically medicated: the journey to find what works”

Autism, disability, accommodations, and the status quo

Let me start this piece with a massive shout out to Lyric Holmans (Neurodivergent Rebel). Their recent livestream with Aucademy provided a huge deal of inspiration for me to write this, and I can’t go ahead without giving credit where credit is due. Autism. Is it a disability, or not? That question will have differentContinue reading “Autism, disability, accommodations, and the status quo”