Lessons I have learned about trauma

I haven’t spoken extensively about it, but my life has been one of extensive trauma. Not necessarily one consistently traumatic experience (although I’ve had my share), no, I have been- as most would put it- very unlucky. I have rolled from one traumatic experience to another. These traumas set the stage for my mental healthContinue reading “Lessons I have learned about trauma”

Emotional Sobriety: the crux of recovery

The journey through recovery takes several important steps. First you must stop engaging with your addiction, in my case, stop using drink and drugs. Next you must learn to live without your addictions. Then, you need to create a life where it is easier not to go back to your addictions. There is, however, anotherContinue reading “Emotional Sobriety: the crux of recovery”

Society and its relationship with alcohol

This one is a spur of the moment post. I just read about Macmillan’s “Go sober” campaign to raise money for people affected by cancer. In principle this is a great endeavour. People drinking less is great for public health, and it’s raising money for a worthy cause. You can understand then why I wasContinue reading “Society and its relationship with alcohol”

A moment of temptation: Overcoming a mind that seeks to destroy itself

I have written a lot about making the decision to seek sobriety. What I haven’t talked about is the moment when I realised I was in this for the long haul. Roughly three years ago, I had an accident. I can’t really remember the details of the accident, but it appeared that I had fracturedContinue reading “A moment of temptation: Overcoming a mind that seeks to destroy itself”

Parallels: My autistic identity and my asexual identity

I only recently publicly admitted to being asexual. It was a great weight off of my shoulders, although I don’t believe that it was too surprising to anyone who knows me well. Much like my being autistic, it was just part and parcel of who people already knew me to be. There is a distinctContinue reading “Parallels: My autistic identity and my asexual identity”

The impact of no healthy autistic asexual representation

I recently realised that I am on the asexual spectrum. More specifically I am greysexual. This means that I rarely feel sexual attraction, and can go a long time without sex with no issues. Most recently, I went through an 8 year stint of feeling no sexual attraction, and engaging in no sexual activity. PriorContinue reading “The impact of no healthy autistic asexual representation”

Simple acts of Radical Kindness: Maintaining my own wellbeing

As those who have followed my writing will know, I have a number of complex mental health issues as well as being an autistic addict in recovery. I am coping with the fallout of those mental health issues more often than not. For this reason, I have had to develop a toolbox full of copingContinue reading “Simple acts of Radical Kindness: Maintaining my own wellbeing”

UK: We owe our NHS a debt of gratitude that I fear we can never repay

I’m taking a brief break from the regular autism, addiction, and mental health topics to write about something that I think is extremely important here in my country. I’ve just finished watching the BBC workplace drama Casualty. Casualty is set in Holby City hospital’s emergency department, and rarely avoids the difficult conversations. This week, theContinue reading “UK: We owe our NHS a debt of gratitude that I fear we can never repay”

Keep choosing recovery: the things that motivate me to stay sober as an autistic addict

Recovery from addiction is complicated. It challenges those of us experiencing it every day. Even now, approaching five years of sobriety, I fight a daily battle with a mind that seeks self-destruction. My mind tells me that I miss drinking and taking drugs. It turns my memories into a sort of twisted nostalgia, blotting outContinue reading “Keep choosing recovery: the things that motivate me to stay sober as an autistic addict”

Surviving and recovering from the holidays and avoiding autistic burnout

Out of the last 48 hours, I have just spent 22 of those hours preparing and cooking Christmas dinner to be delivered to 30 vulnerable people in my home city. I do this every year, and it takes everything I have to do it. Whatever your traditions for this time of year, there is oneContinue reading “Surviving and recovering from the holidays and avoiding autistic burnout”