Keep choosing recovery: the things that motivate me to stay sober as an autistic addict

Recovery from addiction is complicated. It challenges those of us experiencing it every day. Even now, approaching five years of sobriety, I fight a daily battle with a mind that seeks self-destruction. My mind tells me that I miss drinking and taking drugs. It turns my memories into a sort of twisted nostalgia, blotting outContinue reading “Keep choosing recovery: the things that motivate me to stay sober as an autistic addict”

Surviving and recovering from the holidays and avoiding autistic burnout

Out of the last 48 hours, I have just spent 22 of those hours preparing and cooking Christmas dinner to be delivered to 30 vulnerable people in my home city. I do this every year, and it takes everything I have to do it. Whatever your traditions for this time of year, there is oneContinue reading “Surviving and recovering from the holidays and avoiding autistic burnout”

Men, it’s okay to cry: my autistic perspective

Tonight I watched “A street cat named Bob”. The film is adapted from a book, which is the true story of a heroin addict overcoming homelessness and addiction thanks (in part) to his friendship with a stray cat that he rescued. The film is very moving and relatable for me as an addict, and IContinue reading “Men, it’s okay to cry: my autistic perspective”

We need to talk about cigarettes, nicotine, and being autistic

Nicotine addiction is rarely talked about when discussing addiction, but it is probably the most common addiction around. I would estimate that at least half, if not most, of the autistic people I have interacted with have been smokers at some point in their lives. Nicotine addiction is a real issue, especially when you considerContinue reading “We need to talk about cigarettes, nicotine, and being autistic”

An open letter to autistic addicts

My fellow autistic addicts, As we approach the end of a historically difficult year, I hope that you can look back and be proud that you have survived. This year has brought many tests, and you have passed. If all you did this year was make it through, I want you to know that wasContinue reading “An open letter to autistic addicts”

2020: Reflecting on the year from my autistic perspective

Perhaps I am a little early on this, after all, we still have around 6 weeks left of this year, but it felt right at this point to reflect on the year from my autistic viewpoint. December 31st 2019, I had my usual gathering with my friends, but this time I didn’t make my usualContinue reading “2020: Reflecting on the year from my autistic perspective”

Suicide Prevention Week: A reflection

“Who cares if one more light goes out? In a sky of a million stars It flickers, flickers Who cares when someone’s time runs out? If a moment is all we are We’re quicker, quicker Who cares if one more light goes out? Well I do” One More Light, Linkin Park This week marks suicideContinue reading “Suicide Prevention Week: A reflection”

What grief has taught me about my responsibility to the world

“To be is to be perceived, and so to know thyself is only possible through the eyes of the other. The nature of our immortal lives is in the consequences of our words and deeds, that go on and are pushing themselves throughout all time. Our lives are not our own, from womb to tomb,Continue reading “What grief has taught me about my responsibility to the world”