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Nov 24 2023
I just watched the channel 4 documentary on Autistic inpatients: thing need to change

On Channel 4 in the UK there is currently a documentary from their dispatches series called “Locked Away: Our autism scandal”. This is a very upsetting documentary, and it has made one thing very clear to me. Autistic people are suffering at the hands of an oppressive mental health regime; we need to push back. The contents of this article may be very triggering for some people.

How many Autistic people are on psychiatric wards?

As of January 2023, there were 1,280 Autistic people on psychiatric wards (National Autistic Society). This is 1,280 chances to provide meaningful care, and yet I would hazard a guess that this has happened with none of them. Among the general population, those who have been held as psychiatric inpatients are 191 times more likely to die by suicide in the following months (National Institute for Health and Care Research). This is all-the-more concerning when we consider that while Autistic people represent 1% of the population, they represent 11% of suicides (Royal College of Psychiatrists).

Is inpatient treatment helpful for Autistic people?

I have written previously about the mistreatment that goes on in inpatient settings. I am far from the pnly person who feels Inpatient settings are inappropriate for Autistic people. The National Institute for Health and Care Excellence themselves have documents on their website stating that inpatient facilities have “lots of scope for improvement in autism friendliness”. Simply put, no, as it stands inpatient services are not helpful, and may even be detrimental for Autistic people.

My own experiences of being an Autistic inpatient

I have been an inpatient twice, in two different hospitals. The atmosphere is prison-like and hostile. The sensory environment is unbearable. There is a constant feeling that things could erupt at any moment, and staff make this worse.

Contraband such as alcohol and drugs flowed freely on the ward along with razor blades and other harmful items. Staff would use physical and chemical restraint to punish patients, and speak to us as if we were an inconvenience.

When I had reached the end of my patience with the environment (on my second stretch on the ward) I attempted to leave. I was told that if I tried to leave police would be called and I would be changed from a voluntary admission to an involuntary one. I now know this is an abuse of the mental health act.

I left the psychiatric ward in a worse state than I arrived. My care co-ordinator at the time would go on to state in my care plan that I should never be hospitalised again if possible. A difficult thing to write in the care plan of an Autistic Schizophrenic. I am still dealing with the fallout of the sheer quantity of medication they gave to me now, 7 years later.

Why is the inpatient system like this (concluding thoughts)?

Autistic people, particularly those of us with mental health concerns, are seen as sub-human. The system we live within views us as disposable and burdensome. We may have moved into an era of “care in the community” in the post-asylum era, but the attitudes of the old Bedlams are still very much with us. It is assumed that we will never be meaningful contributors to the world, and as such are the victims of a system that uses our mistreatment as an incentive to remain a good, tax-paying, law abiding citizen.

I personally will not stand for the mistreatment of my neurokin, it is time we pushed back and dismantled the systems that mistreat us. We need to throw away the masters tools and dismantle the house with tools of our own design.

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Nov 10 2023
On being the neurodivergent child of an alcoholic parent

This article is an anonymous guest post

I was informally diagnosed with C-PTSD in 2017, aged 41, then formally diagnosed aged 46. I self-identified then was professionally diagnosed Autistic aged 42. I self-identified ADHD aged 44 and diagnosed aged 47.

But, how old do you think I was when I truly believed that I finally understood my own mind? 

I was 31, and off sick from work with depression, working my way through this self-help book: Adult Children of Alcoholics, by Janet Geringer Woititz Ed.D, and making notes in a notebook (I still have this, it is full of signs of autism).

‘This book has all the answers’, I thought at the time. ‘I now realise it is my dad’s fault that I am like this’, I thought, oblivious to the fact that my brother was not the only one in the family struggling to cope with Autism and ADHD, and oblivious to the impact of my dad’s undiagnosed neurodivergence and his circumstances in his formative years. This was only one piece of the puzzle.

So sure was I, aged 31, that my recurring depression was ultimately my dad’s fault, I even asked him to pay for my psychotherapy. Yes, my beloved dad, who had been sober for 20 years then, but still described himself as a recovering alcoholic (and still does now). His reply was something like, ‘it is not that simple, we all have our baggage’.

My late diagnoses of Autism, C-PTSD and (in two weeks) ADHD have led me to completely rethink, to accept how what I know and understand is only the tip of the iceberg, and to reject the moral model of addiction.

Let’s not just de-stigmatise neurodevelopmental differences and mental health conditions, but also addiction, which is a human reaction to circumstances, NOT a moral failing! Addiction does not make us inherently bad people.

And one book cannot hold all the answers. Self-awareness is a journey, not a destination, and we each carry baggage.

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Oct 31 2023
Being an Autistic bullying victim led to my schizophrenia

At this time of year I often find myself reflecting on my experience as a Schizophrenic person; October 2023 marks 15 years since it became clear to me that I have a psychotic condition. The world is abjectly cruel to Autistic people. Life as an Autistic adult is incredibly difficult, and my life as an Autistic young person was no different. School was a nightmare for so many reasons, but one of the defining parts of my experience was the incessant bullying I experienced. I recently discussed my experiences with being Autistic and Schizophrenic, but I think it is important to recognise how bullying by both students and teachers contributed to my psychosis.

My experience as an Autistic bullying victim

The bullying started in Junior school. For those outside of the UK, junior school is years 3 to 6, roughly aged 7 to 11 years old. Students had realised I was different. I was far beyond them academically, I wasn’t interested in sports or typical “boy” things. I communicated differently and socialised differently. Teachers at the time would tell my mother that the bullying was my fault for being different. If only I would act more like everyone else, I would be much happier. I was undiagnosed Autistic, and rather than accept my differences, teachers sought to extinguish them.

Secondary school (high school to my American readers) was no different. The main addition was that I was being assaulted physically on a daily basis. Every part of who I was became a target for other young people. Even those who had no record of bullying would treat me badly. I was unable to trust anyone, least of all teachers. My school was known as a good place to send your children, and yet the teachers at that school drove me to the point of wishing I was no longer alive. It was a frightening and lonely experience.

How does this relate to my Autistic and Schizophrenic experience?

I experience a great deal of paranoia. Voices have historically focused on how I am not real, the world is not real, that people are planning to harm me. They have also tried to convince me that I am unsafe with people I love. This in itself is an isolating experience, but I feel it is deeply connected to the trauma of my educational environment. Teachers would lock me in rooms, shout at me, tell me I was lying about the way I was treated in school. I was gaslit and abused by the people who were meant to nurture my learning. The constant fear of bullying and assault by other students left me feeling as though I could be attacked at any moment.

I believe that the hallucinations and delusions I have experienced as a Schizophrenic person are intimately linked to the way I was treated in school. School may not have been the whole story, but it formed a great deal of the trauma that I struggle to reconcile to this day. Even writing this, I feel a sadness for the child I wasn’t able to be. A child that needed support and protection from the school, but instead learned that his reality and the people within it was untrustworthy and volatile. The truth is that since my school day’s I have felt alone, trying to make sense of the cruelty of this world. All because I was different.

What was the fallout of bullying a young person into schizophrenia and psychosis

In October 2008 I began hearing voices. A week later I would smoke cannabis for the first time. Within a month I was drinking and smoking cannabis almost daily. By the end of 2010 I was daily using drugs such as mephedrone (MCAT), ketamine, ecstacy, and speed. By 2013 I was using opioids such as tramadol and dihydrocodeine (DF118) on a daily basis alongside high doses of Diazepam (Valium). Within a year I would be a patient at the local A+E on a weekly basis for morphine and oxycodone overdoses. In 2015 I was faced with a difficult and life changing choice; get sober or die. I did get sober, but it cost me two lengthy stays on a psychiatric inpatient ward.

We have to stop the bullying of Autistic young people

Autistic people report bullying in up to 50% of cases. Remember, that’s the ones who report it, many of our young people deal with this pain in silence and isolation. I highly recommend reading this study by Pearson, Rose & Rees (2023) about the victimisation of Autistic people. Bullying and victimisation is costing our lives every single day. Even those of us who do not die in the literally sense face the loss of our happiness and connection to the world. This kind of bullying tears apart the mind and leaves us to try and reassemble ourselves in a world that keeps undoing our healing. We deserve better, our children deserve better.

It’s time the world did better.

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Oct 30 2023
What is unique about my experience as an AuDHD Schizophrenic person?

Over the years, I have spoken about my experience of psychosis and autism from the perspective of its uniqueness. However, over the last few years, I have come to accept that I am also ADHD, and I feel that addressing the particular intersections at play for AuDHD people experiencing psychosis is something that needs to be done. So, what is different for me as an an AuDHD person with a diagnosis of schizophrenia?

How does my schizophrenia present?

One of the features usually seen in Schizophrenic people is flat affect or lack of emotional response. For me, though, this does not happen. Part of the reason I went 14 years without a schizophrenia diagnosis is because I present as excitable and impulsive. I say absurd things, and quite well embody the description of a “mad scientist” trope.

Despite experiencing typical traits such as paranoid delusions, voice hearing, visual hallucinations, and periods of catatonia, I don’t experience many of what would be called the “negative symptoms”.

My speech is rarely disorganised unless I am deep into psychosis, I can communicate rationally, and even when I am terrified, lonely, and hopeless, I come across as exuberant and in need of constant stimulation. I also demonstrate a lot of insight into my diagnosis because as an AuDHD person, I have spent a long time learning about it in intricate detail.

The insight problem

One of the problems that psychiatrists have had with recognising my psychosis is the aforementioned insight I have. This can be understood as having an awareness that what you are experiencing isn’t real. For me, it was a complicated affair.

I knew a lot about psychotic conditions. I knew diagnostic criteria and contemporary research. I absorbed knowledge from therapists. I knew logically that I met the criteria for a schizophrenia spectrum diagnosis. Despite this, I still didn’t believe I was ill (more on that in a moment). This meant that psychiatrists were faced by a patient who seemed to simultaneously have and not have, insight.

Am I mentally ill?

This is perhaps one of my most controversial opinions, even amongst people who know me well. I do not view myself as having a mental illness, but I do agree that I am Schizophrenic. Much in the same way one can know they are Autistic or ADHD without viewing either of them as illness.

I believe that my schizophrenia is a form of acquired neurodivergence precipitated by a life of traumatic experiences. While I do not believe I am ill, I do take medication. I view this medication in the same way that one might view ADHD meds. They are a tool that makes life more manageable.

How common is schizophrenia in neurodivergent spaces? (Further reading)

Jutla et al (2021) mention that studies have indicated a prevalence of 12% in Autistic populations, with schizophrenia spectrum conditions being three to six times more likely amongst Autistic people.

Gerhand & Saville (2021) found schizophrenia and ADHD co-occurrence rates of up to 38.75%, vastly outpacing the general population.

For more information on my experiences and these intersections, read these articles

Creating Autistic Suffering: The AuDHD Burnout to Psychosis Cycle- A deeper look
Autism and psychosis: The elephant in the room
How common is psychosis for Autistic people?
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Oct 24 2023
A story of being Autistic and getting referred to CAMHS

This article is a guest post written by Asher Jenner

Some of the content of this article may be triggering

I was a happy child until the age of 5 when I went to mainstream school. On the first day of school, I began self-harming and by the end of that week I attempted to use a ligature to strangle myself.

I knew I was different to all the other children in school who could simply obey the school rules, be quiet, sit still, concentrate on work, not shout out answers to questions and enjoy team sports and games and playtimes. I really struggled at school to do all these things, but I was very bright and wanted to learn.

When I left school each day, I immediately went into Autistic meltdown due to my masking all day and the way the staff and pupils treated me. I was verbally aggressive and threw large items such as an armchair and a large TV. I kicked and punched anything near to me. I was majorly distressed.

My parents asked 3 times for school to refer me to CAMHS for an assessment for Autism so
that they would get the right support for me at school and so they could help me properly at home. School refused to refer twice but referred the 3rd time. Someone from CAMHS came into school and observed me in 1 lesson for an hour when I was heavily masking. They asked mum and dad to fill in a questionnaire which was assessing for ADHD, when they had asked for an Autism assessment! Aged 6 CAMHS told me I had no condition at all but that I was willfully naughty and attention seeking. They told my parents that their parenting was at
fault and sent them on a standard parenting course. The person running the course agreed
after 2 sessions that the course was not suitable and was a waste of time.

My behaviour at home and school became more and more distressed. I had no friends at
school, and I had major Autistic meltdowns at school and at home. The self-harm attempts
to kill myself and the feelings of major distress just grew massively. School refused to refer me back to CAMHS and so aged 7 my parents got a private Autism diagnosis. The report from the diagnosis said I required urgent assistance from CAMHS due to my poor mental health at a tier 4 level. CAMHS refused to even see me.

Subsequently, my parents got a private PDA diagnosis, but CAMHS insisted that PDA did not exist and that I had Asperger’s. They told me it was a gift, and I should be happy to have Asperger’s. They showed no understanding whatsoever of the difficulties faced by Autistic or PDA youngsters, and they were the very organisation we trusted to understand Autism and PDA and to give appropriate support for that and mental health issues associated with it.

My mental health declined consistently from this age to the age of 15, when I was taken into an inpatient eating disorder unit as my life was in danger.

I was referred to CAMHS on many occasions during this period, such as when I was excluded from school, as I was classed as a danger to myself and others. They saw me a couple of times and offered basic breathing techniques and nothing more and discharged me! They finally agreed to give me Melatonin so that I could sleep, but they offered no support for my OCD and germ anxieties which had begun due to my severe anxiety levels.

They were asked on many occasions to give support for this as it was starting to really take over my life, but they refused. They refused for many years to give me any anxiety medication or therapeutic support, and their attitude towards PDA altered from it doesn’t exist, to it may be a thing but as it isn’t diagnosed here, we are not trained in it, and we will not be trained in it and so we cannot help you. Please be aware that we have many friends in the PDA society who are official trainers for the PDAs society.

We offered on many occasions to give
free training in PDA to CAMHS, but they refused to accept the training. On each occasion they stated that CAMHS were poorly funded and only had enough funding for 6-week standard therapies. They had no funding for neurodivergent services or alterations or extensions to their therapies. When my parents asked how we could get access to correct services or funding for me, CAMHS always replied there is none!

Emergency CAMHS were called on several occasions where I was extremely distressed, and it was nighttime. They refused to come out to me as they read my notes and said we don’t have training in PDA, and we have no drugs and no therapy to offer you. We come in a large team of people, and we know this would increase your anxiety, so we won’t come because we know it would make things worse! They said they would get core CAMHS to call us and give proper support the following day. They stated it was core CAMHS job to support people like me. Core CAMHS NEVER contacted us after any of our emergency CAMHS calls.

My germ anxiety reached the point where I would not leave my bedroom other than for
medical appointments. CAMHS offered immersion therapy in a 6-week standard course, and we took asked them to alter the therapy to be appropriate for PDA and Autism and advised them that it would take much longer than 6 weeks, but they refused and said it’s all we offer, take it or leave it. As the PDA society and the NAS had both advised that it would cause further harm and distress to have this therapy as it wasn’t in any way suitable for PDA, my daughter declined the treatment and again asked in writing for something suitable for her which would meet her needs. We received no reply.

My mum literally begged CAMHS for some help for me because my germ anxieties were so bad. They came round to the house and said they could not help at all but said I should go voluntarily into an inpatient unit for yet more standard treatment! I was traumatised by this and both myself and my parents knew it was totally unsuitable for me. We all told CAMHS this, but they just ignored us. I was left at home with no support for my mental health which worsened again to a point where I developed an eating disorder.

CAMHS only offered standard Maudsley method eating disorder support, which is a series of demands and is therefore totally inappropriate for a person with PDA (Pathological Demand Avoidance.) Again, we got advice from the PDA society and the NAS who both said do not accept this as it will worsen the mental state of your child. CAMHS insisted that was all they could offer and left me to get worse and worse. When I got to the point of refusing to consume any calories, CAMHS forced me into hospital, which further traumatised me.

In hospital, emergency CAMHS came to visit and stated it was not a classic eating disorder, I should not be in hospital as it was causing me trauma to be there, that standard eating disorder Maudsley method treatments were not suitable for me and that core Camhs should treat me in the community. Core Camhs ignored this and carried on stating that I had to have standard Maudsley method treatment from their ED team. The ED team refused to alter any treatment as they had no training or understanding of PDA and did not know how to help me. So again, I was left to get worse and worse.

CETR meetings advised I could finally get a package of support for suitable treatment in the community and admitted that CAMHS had failed me due to lack of PDA understanding and sticking to the line of you must accept standard treatment. No suitable treatment in the community was found and I was in hospital for 2 months classed as life in danger.

During that period, CAMHS and NHS England were meant to be finding a suitable place in a
unit which could meet my needs. They failed to do this, and so threatened in writing to
remove me from my parents’ ‘harmful’ care, to section me under the mental health act and
to take to me to a standard unit of their choice for standard care. Camhs psychiatrists told my mum that she was harming me by stopping me from receiving this standard care and would not listen to her when she advised that I needed care which met my needs and took account of my PDA, and that standard care would worsen my mental state and I probably would not live through it. Mum had to get legal advice from a barrister to get CAMHS and NHS England to change their views or we would take them to a judicial review, and at that
point suddenly they found a suitable unit which could give me a holistic person-centered approach and could meet my needs!

I went into Ellern Mede specialist eating disorder services unit in Rotherham and left 14 months later a totally different person. The treatment was amazing because I was listened to and understood, my needs were met, I was treated with respect, I was treated for all my mental health issues, approaches and therapies were altered appropriately, I was involved fully in my care and treatment. In other words, all the things which CAMHS had refused me for 10 years even though both myself and my parents had been asking CAMHS for it for 10 years!

I was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder among many other things at the unit and given appropriate medication for this. CAMHS had always stated that my anxiety was part of my Autism and on that basis, they refused to give me any medication for it.

The report written at the unit by the psychiatrists and psychologists stated that I was severely traumatised, and that the trauma had led to mental health issues and an eating disorder. The main causes of the trauma were stated in writing as mainstream school and CAMHS. So, to be clear, it was stated that CAMHS were the cause of my mental health issues, my trauma, and my eating disorder.

Since leaving the inpatient unit, I have had a very different life. I have finally been able to go back to school, which I missed for many years due to my mental health issues. I am taking and passing my GCSEs with level 7s and 8s. I have auditioned and am taking part in the Centre for Advanced Training at the Northern School of Contemporary dance, and I hope to study there for a degree in dance and open a fully inclusive dance school. I also present and train in Autism, PDA, mental health issues and eating disorders as well as advocating for others like myself. I present and train and advocate because I know there are thousands of other neurodivergent youngsters like me who are being failed by CAMHS and it must stop! I suffered massively for years because of them, and I almost died.

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Asher’s Bio

Since leaving the inpatient unit I have been determined to spread awareness and understanding so that no one else suffers as I did.

I have presented and trained both face to face and online in PDA, Autism, mental health issues and eating disorders.

I have worked for the PDA society, the NAS, Autism Accreditation, NHS England, the PDA Space, and the PDA summit 2023, various Autism charities, parent carer forums and Sencos across many areas etc… I have done a podcast with Anna Kennedy OBE, and I have been involved in getting a book called the Autistic Teens Avoidant Eating Workbook by Dr Elizabeth Shea published. This is a self-help workbook for Autistic Teens with Arfid.

I have trained in PDA and eating disorders in combination in Ellern Mede inpatient units, and they have advised me that my training is helping them to recognise people who have PDA but may be undiagnosed, and to give them appropriate PDA friendly supports. My work has been sent all over the world at the request of individuals including parents and those with eating disorders and PDA as well as some professionals.

I am hoping to be involved in having input to the Oliver McGowan mandatory training for inpatient units, so that PDA will be added to the training. I have just recently become a trainer for the PDA society, and I hope to be able to reach more professionals, parents and other neurodivergent people to bring about understanding and support for people like myself.

I have received a Radio Humberside Making a Difference Highly commended award in 2022 and I have been nominated for an Anna Kennedy Autism Hero award this year 2023.

I have also been able to return to my school and my studies and I have passed 3 GCSEs with good grades. I have 2 more to finish this year. I am now dancing at the Northern School of Contemporary dance, and I hope to go on to do a degree in dance there.

My ultimate goals are to run my own fully inclusive dance school for all, and to carry on my advocacy work in some guise. I’m currently voluntarily presenting and training, but eventually my plan would be to earn a living from this as well as my dancing career.

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Oct 21 2023
How CAMHS put my life at risk and then discharged me

Being an Autistic teenager is hard. My life was no exception to this rule. After years of trauma and loss, I was at breaking point. Then, one day, my mother came to hurry me up with getting ready for school. What she found was not the resilient and hardworking son she was always so proud of. No, what she found was the husk of her child. Unable to speak or do anything but rock back and forth while sobbing. This is a story about CAMHS.

I was 15 years old, and for the next three months, I would barely be able to leave the house. Let alone attend school.

It transpired that the person who would be the most helpful was a paediatric doctor. I wasn’t seeing him for my mental health. I was seeing him for bowel and stomach related issues. He became deeply concerned with my suicidal ideation and stress levels, and wrote to both my school and my GP to insist I have a referral to Child and Adolescent Mental Health Services (CAMHS) made.

The truth is that at 15 years old, I didn’t see any point to my life. It felt as though suffering were all I was destined for, and I would be better off leaving this world, taking with me the burdensome weight of my pain. I waited only a few weeks for an appointment to be made with a CAMHS psychiatrist.

I have always communicated best through written word and art. So, naturally, I took with me to the appointment writing and drawings that contained some of the darkest machinations of my suffering. If there was a chance for help, I wanted them to see how deep my pain ran. I wanted them to know the truth so they could best support me.

The psychiatrist was not interested. She did not want to see me writing or drawing. She didn’t care for the vulnerability I was laying before her in order to communicate my needs. I felt invalidated and small. Powerless. In her words, I was euthymic (meaning of good mood) and a school refused. She acknowledged that I was depressed but made it clear that if I did not want to take medication, I would be discharged.

The appointment lasted five minutes. I was discharged and labelled a school refused. My mother would go on to be threatened with legal action and fines. I went on to become a young adult, heavily addicted to drugs and alcohol, Schizophrenic, and deeply suicidal. I would not have my formal identification of autism until 6 months after I got sober.

CAMHS showed me then, even in 2005, that they didn’t care about children like me. At the time I thought I was just unlucky, but my time in the Autistic community has show me I am one of tens of thousands of Autistic children who have been failed by this service at some of the most crucial times in our lives.

That is why I am part of the ongoing campaign to hold CAMHS to account. Lives have been lost, and I am lucky mine wasn’t one of them. How can we make a better future for our children when services like CAMHS allow them to grow into adults for whom suffering is an everyday part of their lives?

I will not allow this to continue, and neither should you. We owe this to our children, and all children yet to come.

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Sep 11 2023
CAMHS have been contributing to the death of Autistic young people for over a decade

I was recently sent a BBC article regarding multiple deaths of Autistic young people occurring despite coroners issuing “prevention of future death” (PFD) notices. These notices are only issued when a person’s death is the result of systemic failings and are issued when changes need to be made in order to prevent future deaths. The BBC article looked through 4,000 PFD notices over the past 10 years, and what they found is harrowing.

What is the risk of suicide amongst Autistic young people?

According to the Royal College of Psychiatrists, Autistic children in the UK are 28× more likely to think about or attempt suicide compared to their neurotypical peers. This could be for a number of reasons, but I believe that trauma plays the biggest role in this. Autistic young people and adults experience traumatic events at a higher rate than non-Autistic people. From communication invalidation, to sensory trauma, even good old fashion gaslighting. Autistic people have a rough experience of the world.

It is unsurprising then that Autistic young people, whome some research estimates 94% are victims of bullying, so regularly experience such an inordinately high rate of suicidal ideation and attempts. We also have to consider that Autistic people often exist at the intersections of race, sexuality and gender, other disability, and class. As a result of this, their mistreatment may be compounded by multiple forms of marginalisation.

Why are CAMHS important to preventing the deaths of Autistic young people?

As mentioned previously, Autistic children and young people are significantly more likely to experience suicidal ideation or attempts. Where their is suicidal ideation, there is often psychological distress. I’m fact, according to the Mental Health Foundation; 7 in 10 Autistic people have a diagnosable mental health concern. From this, I infer that over two-thirds of Autistic children and young people need support from CAMHS.

Despite this very high rate of suicide and suicidal ideation, and mental health concerns, only around 10% of patients under CAMHS are Autistic. This represents a large disparity between the accessibility of services for Autistic and non-Autistic groups. This disparity is indicative of wider systemic failings in the support of Autistic children and young people and is supported by the BBC’s findings in PFD notices.

How are CAMHS failing Autistic children and young people?

In her Prevention of Future Death notice to NHS Kent and Medway, coroner Catherine Wood said Sammy fell during an “episode of high risk behaviour” and criticised the local authority and mental health services for “inadequate support”.

She also made it clear that it was “predictable that a similar incident may arise… if children with complex neurodevelopmental needs are excluded from accessing the care and treatment they require to keep them safe”.

Quote from the above linked BBC article

The BBC investigation found 51 prevention of further death notices that pertained to the deaths of Autistic children and young people. 51 may not sound much amongst a group of 4,000, but it is. According to the National Autistic Society, over 1 in 100 (1%) people in the UK are Autistic. Of the PFD notices investigated by the BBC, around 1.3% were Autistic. This indicates to me that Autistic people are better represented in deaths regarding systemic failing than they are in the general population.

The screenshot below elaborates on some of the reasons found that control used to the loss of Autistic lives:

The five key concerns identified by the BBC as repeated issues in the deaths of Autistic children and young people, read article here.

What does this mean for CAMHS and Autistic wellbeing?

As I have discussed in previous articles about CAMHS; it is not enough to simply get through the doors at these services. We need them to be restructured and invigorated with new life. In their current form, CAMHS is not fit for purpose. Too many Autistic children and young people are losing their lives, and those lives are at the feet of a CAMHS that has time and again failed to do what it exists to do.

Autistic children deserve the same chance at a happy and meaningful life as any other child. CAMHS are not enabling that.

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Aug 28 2023
Creating Autistic suffering: CAMHS advise “safe cutting” for Autistic children

This article was co-authored by Tanya Adkin and David Gray-Hammond

This article contains detailed discussion of self-harm and CAMHS failures

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For those of you who are unfamiliar with Tanya’s work outside of this blog series, Tanya specialises in what services like CAMHS would call “complex presentations”. To consider it another way, Tanya is called in when professionals don’t know what to do. A lot of this work consists of working alongside independent social workers for the assessment, care and support planning, and delivery of short-term crisis intervention support to Autistic people who are experiencing complicating factors such as; criminal exploitation, co-occurring psychiatric conditions, disordered eating, “violent and challenging behaviour”, and self-injurious behaviours. David (in his professional life) is a qualified independent advocate who has spent quite some time deconstructing and shining a light on the failures of Child and Adolescent Mental Health Services (CAMHS). In this article we’re going to focus on a specific type of self-injurious behaviour in the form of cutting, and the guidelines surrounding it’s management.

CAMHS refusing to treat different people differently is a form of disability discrimination

This type of presentation is not unique to Autistic experience, however, there is an element of it that is unique and widely misunderstood by services. Services such as CAMHS are taking a one-size-fits-all harm reduction approach to cutting. The problem is that this does not take account of the sensory element of cutting for Autistic people. More and more often, what we are seeing, what we are hearing, is CAMHS advice which is essentially just to let Autistic children cut, but from a position of “safe cutting”. Let’s take a look at some of the NICE guidance in this area:

“During the psychosocial assessment, explore the functions of self-harm for the person. Take into account:

the person’s values, wishes and what matters to them

the need for psychological interventions, social care and support, or occupational or vocational rehabilitation
any learning disability, neurodevelopmental conditions or mental health problems
the person’s treatment preferences
that each person who self-harms does so for their own reasons
that each episode of self-harm should be treated in its own right, and a person’s reasons for self-harm may vary from episode to episode
whether it is appropriate to involve their family and carers; see the section on involving family members and carers.”

A portion of the guidance for self-harm within NICE guidelines, full guidance here.

If all of these things were fully taken into account in terms of Autistic children, “safe cutting” would never be the recommendation.

Interoception

Interoception is one of the eight senses, it is the ability to read and decipher internal bodily signals. This may include things such as; hunger, thirst, needing the toilet, emotions, but more importantly, it affects how we experience pain and injury. It’s almost a logical impossibility for Autistic children that are receiving the care of CAMHS to not have interoceptive differences. We know that 50-85% of Autistic people have alexithymia (interoceptive under-responsiveness in terms of emotion) (Click here for more information). We also know how bad things need to be for CAMHS to even accept a referral of an Autistic young person. Interoceptive differences have a high correlation with trauma and other mental health differences (Adkin, 2023). It stands to reason that Autistic people who meet a CAMHS threshold will have significant differences in their interoceptive sense.

Autistic children with interoceptive differences can not cut safely

What Autistic children need is the support that is outlined in NICE guidance. But because of a lack of competence (Adkin & Gray-Hammond, 2023) and understanding around interoception within the context of Autistic experience CAMHS have created dangerous situations for Autistic children and their families. When we look at suicidality rates in Autistic young people, rates of up to 28 times more than non-Autistic young people (Royal College of Psychiatrists, accessed 2023); does “safe cutting” play a role in this?

People who experience pain and injury differently, and dynamically, can not safely engage in self-injurious behaviours.

Why do Autistic people cut?

“Sensory disturbances are predictive of self-injury in Autistic people.”

Moseley et al (2020)

“there remains a concerning relationship between self-injury and suicidality which exists regardless of individual feelings on self-injury. This is consistent with the theoretical perspective that self-injury can be a “gateway” through which individuals acquire capability for lethal suicidal behaviors.”

Moseley et al (2020)

To summarise the above; A lot of Autistic people engage in self-injurious behaviour due to sensory difference. Self-injury among the Autistic population is highly predictive of suicidality.

CAMHS use “safe cutting” to guard resources

Advising safe cutting actually serves as a way of removing young people from CAMHS caseloads by normalising self-injurious behaviour. It offers false reassurance to parents that this is okay and that their child is not at risk, because CAMHS said so. It is a classic case of services abusing their perceived authority to gatekeep resources. “Safe cutting” advice is bypassing the NICE guidance in a way that removes the responsibility from CAMHS and places it onto the young person. If a young person suffers significant injury under the advice of “safe cutting”, it is the parents and carers who will be facing safeguarding investigations, not services like CAMHS.

So, How should CAMHS deal with this?

We need competent and effective assessment, care planning, and intervention delivery. Any approach to self-injury needs to take account of the Autistic young person’s sensory profile, and adapt it’s strategy to that. They need sensory-integration occupational therapy assessment and provision to address sensory needs. This is needed to address the sensory need that self-injury is meeting. They need social care assessments that are thorough and holistic, taking into account individual needs, educational needs, and medical needs. They need social workers that are competent in neurodivergent experience to ensure effective, multi-agency care and support planning and delivery.

What can you do if you have received this advice?

If you have been advised that “safe cutting” is the answer to self-injurious behaviour, please refer back to the linked NICE guidelines. Be prepared to follow formal complaint policies, when undoubtedly the guidance has not be followed, and ensure that you request occupational therapy input as per NICE guidelines.

Please Sign this petition regarding CAMHS refusal to see Autistic children and attend this protest if you can.

References

Adkin, T. (2023). What is meerkat mode and how does it relate to AuDHD? Emergent Divergence.

Moseley, R. L., Gregory, N. J., Smith, P., Allison, C., & Baron-Cohen, S. (2020). Links between self-injury and suicidality in autism. Molecular autism, 11, 1-15.

RCP (Accessed 2023) Suicide and Autism, a national crisis. Royal College of Psychiatrists

Tanya Adkin 0 Comments
Aug 28 2023
Creating Autistic Suffering: The Self-Diagnosis Debate

This article was co-authored by David Gray-Hammond and Tanya Adkin

There are many other nuances to Autistic self-diagnosis debate considering colonialism, racism, misogyny, and transphobia (to name a few) that others with more lived experience would be better placed to highlight. This article is not the whole issue (links at the end). We seek to address some of the most obvious points within the confines of a blog post.

There is a long-standing debate around the validity of people who self-identify as Autistic without formal diagnosis. One of the main arguments we see against self-identification is “what if they get it wrong?”. We would respond with “how can it be wrong?”. Autism is an abstract concept, the diagnostic criteria is fundamentally flawed, based only on white western boys who are displaying trauma responses. Autism does not exist as a tangible entity. You can’t touch it, manipulate it, you can’t interact with it. What actually exists is Autistic people.

So, what if it is wrong?

Notwithstanding the above point that self-identification cannot actually be wrong, lets just pretend that it can be for the sake of this next section. What if somebody identifying as Autistic is in fact experiencing a different flavour of neurodivergence? The rate of co-occurrence between Autistic people and other neurodivergences, conceptualised as “mental health conditions” is ridiculously high (more on that here). Tanya and David often joke that we have never met a ‘ready-salted’ Autistic; that is to say, we have never met an Autistic person that comes in only one flavour, without co-occurring conditions. This means that statistically, Autistic people are more likely to be recognised with co-occurring mental health differences than the neurotypical population.

“It’s trendy to be Autistic”

People who make the argument that self-diagnosed individuals are following a trend fundamentally misunderstand the neurodiversity movement. The neurodiversity movement is born from the collective frustration and mistreatment of neurodivergent people. No one is identifying as Autistic for fun. We come to this understanding because we are desperate to find relief from a world that has systematically oppressed and harassed us. Another misunderstanding here is around what being neurotypical is. We have a false dichotomy of ND vs NT, but neurotypicality is a performance, not a neurocognitive style (Walker, 2021). It is an ability to fit in with the world neuronormative standards. To consider it another way, if you identify with the Autistic label, you almost definitely can’t perform neurotypicality at the very least.

What is the neurodiversity movement and how does it relate to self-identification?

The neurodiversity movement is, at it’s core, a social justice movement. Those who identify as neurodivergent are situating themselves within the social model of disability. It is a political stance, one that places the person in opposition to the medicalisation of human minds. It is a movement that exposes the flaws of our current capitalist and neoliberal culture in the west that seeks to pathologise anything that does not conform to an attitude of profit-driven, self-reliant, neurotypicality. When we tell people not to self-diagnose, or identify outside of diagnostic models, we are inadvertently bolstering the psychiatric industrial complex that serves to medicalise dissent from our current systems of oppression. Therefore, by opposing self-identification, we are policing peoples political expression, which is a product of privilege and frankly makes you a bit of an arsehole.

The validity of the autism diagnostic criteria

Problems with the diagnostic criteria are well documented, we don’t have space to list every single issue, but there is more to be found here. What should we do about identification? Does this mean that nobody should ever be identified as Autistic? Absolutely not. There is research specifically on the flaws within the diagnostic criteria, so what do we have as an alternative? This is where Autistic-led theory comes into it’s own.

Specifically, the double empathy problem (Milton, 2012). Research tells us that Autistic to Autistic communication is more reciprocal and of better quality than Autistic to non-Autistic communication (Crompton et al, 2020). Research also tells us that neurotypical people perceive Autistic people unfavourably (Mitchell, Sheppard, & Cassidy, 2021). Botha (2021) evidences Autistic community-connectedness as a buffer against minority stress. To bring these points together, if you communicate more effectively with other Autistic people, if you find that neurotypical people dislike you for no reason, and if you find being part of an Autistic community massively reduces the minority stress that you experience; the research suggests that these things are far more effective at identifying Autistic people than flawed diagnostic criteria from old white men who studied little white boys.

To conclude

So, next time someone tries to tell you they are Autistic, try believing them. We don’t need old, stale, and pale neurotypicals to validate our internal experience of the world, and give us permission to exist. We are more than capable of knowing ourselves. If it helps us live more authentically, and reduces the stress we experience, then we should not be policing that. To speak against self-diagnosis is to parade one’s own ignorance for all to see.

If you think you’re Autistic, welcome to the community, we hope you find your home here.

Further reading

Racism- https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/13623613211043643

Gender-https://www.forbes.com/sites/anuradhavaranasi/2022/08/31/autism-diagnosis-has-a-gender-bias-problem/

Transphobia- https://www.theautismcoach.co.uk/blog/transphobia-and-autism

References

Botha, M. (2020). Autistic community connectedness as a buffer against the effects of minority stress (Doctoral dissertation, University of Surrey).

Crompton, C. J., Sharp, M., Axbey, H., Fletcher-Watson, S., Flynn, E. G., & Ropar, D. (2020). Neurotype-matching, but not being autistic, influences self and observer ratings of interpersonal rapport. Frontiers in Psychology, 11, 2961.

Milton, D. E. (2012). On the ontological status of autism: The ‘double empathy problem’. Disability & society, 27(6), 883-887.

Mitchell, P., Sheppard, E., & Cassidy, S. (2021). Autism and the double empathy problem: Implications for development and mental health. British Journal of Developmental Psychology, 39(1), 1-18.

Walker, N. (2021). Neuroqueer Heresies: Notes on on the neurodiversity paradigm, Autistic empowerment, and post-normal possibilities. Autonomous Press.

David Gray-Hammond 0 Comments
Aug 27 2023
AuDHD addicts don’t respond to shame the way you want them to: Here is why

I have written before about how How the shame cycle barricades us from recovery in terms of addiction. In particular, here, I think about people who are AuDHD. If you exist at that particular intersection of experience, there is an increased likelihood that you use substances to improve your own wellbeing. Where there is self-medication, there is an increased risk of addiction. Where their is addiction, there are people trying to shame them into quitting.

Autism, ADHD, and shame

Being neurodivergent usually comes with a level of shame. This is due to the fact that society uses neuronormativity to police how we think, feel, act, and emote. It is estimated that ADHD children receive around 20,000 negative or corrective comments by age 10. Let us not forget that if a child is AuDHD, then there is a risk that they have been exposed to harmful interventions such as ABA or perhaps even MMS to try and make them “indistinguishable from their peers”.

When we consider this with respect to AuDHD adults, we are literally creating a factory line that takes children and turns them into adults who believe that who they are is wrong, invalid, a failure, or subhuman. To be AuDHD is to be constantly told why you are not enough. I believe from this you can already see why we may turn to drugs and alcohol to feel better.

Why does shame not stop addiction?

Clockwise arrows move between the words “shamed by people” and “use to cope” around the word “addiction”.

Addiction is insidious. It creeps into your life and slowly dismantles it. Stripping away your sense of identity, your relationships, your economic stability. It slowly takes everything from you until it is ready to take you away from the world. Addiction is not a moral failing, and it certainly is not a choice. No one wakes up one morning and decides to give away their liberty in the pursuit of oblivion.

One of the reasons we seek that oblivion is because the pain we experience is so intense that we would rather feel nothing at all. Shame adds to this pain. It eats away at us, tells us we should hide and obfuscate those parts of us that need to be in the light. If open communication is the key to recovery, then shame is the barricade keeping us from it. For this reason, shame will only ever keep us heading back towards oblivion.

What helps AuDHD people recover from addiction?

As we have discussed. AuDHD people are already driven to conceal themselves from childhood. Driving that further by shaming their drug use only serves to entrench that more deeply. In order to recover, we need to be able to communicate our inner experience openly and honestly. We have to create environments where a more natural embodiment of our internal experience is not something that will be penalised. To consider it another way; we have to let people be themselves.

Before we can be ourselves, we have to know ourselves. This is why community connectedness is so very important. Aside from an overall reduction in minority stress, it allows us to learn about ourselves through shared experience with others. By engaging in natural communication and AuSociality, we learn what it is to be us, and how to improve our wellbeing. When we begin to feel good about ourselves, it becomes easier to tackle addiction.

There is no one-size-fits-all approach to addiction recovery, but I am certain that shaming AuDHD addicts will never achieve what you hope it will. If we want to save lives, we have to begin creating safe and nurturing spaces, not driving people back to the oblivion they already feel they deserve.

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