This one’s for you Spectrum 10k

I am angry. I am beyond angry. I am angry, tired, sad, stressed, and quite frankly, sickened to my core. Since S10k was announced, I have watched as their blithe request for our DNA has traumatised a community that I love beyond measure. My friends and colleagues have poured their heart into fighting your (notContinue reading “This one’s for you Spectrum 10k”

On the destructive nature of humanity

As Autistic people, we are uniquely wired to find the truest forms of beauty in the world. Our eyes can catch every detail of the rainbow in the mist of water, or the delicate complexity of a spiders web. Still, many of us bring havoc, wilfully and determinedly breaking that which should bring us comfort.Continue reading “On the destructive nature of humanity”

Untitled poetry regarding S10k

Written anonymously by a friend On the 24th august an announcement was madeAlarm bells rang as a friend was disdained On mainstream media on a pedastoolResearch was announced treating us like we are fools Processing began…. Numb, shutdown, uncertaintyThen came the realisation, this was aimed at me A direct insult, a direct threat,to me, myContinue reading “Untitled poetry regarding S10k”

Unmet support needs and multiple systemic failures: A story of addiction and autism

As I have said before, I truly believe that addiction is the result of unmet support needs. This can be an incredibly complex field, but today I am going to take take brief dive into the experiences that led to my addiction. My first major trauma was age 7. My best friend, Carl, died ofContinue reading “Unmet support needs and multiple systemic failures: A story of addiction and autism”

Autism, addiction, and my need for control

I have learned a great deal about myself through self-reflection over the last 5 years of sobriety, but one lesson was considerably difficult to learn. I like to think of myself as a friendly and generally happy and fun person to be around, but the truth is that I need control. I need control overContinue reading “Autism, addiction, and my need for control”